What is Freedom

In truth I am not sure I am good, I certainly have lived through much fear and pain, yet I strive to overcome this and to reveal the qualities so easily hidden by the need for protection.  Capacity to love, yes.  Humility, emerging very quickly.  Devotion, yes, in the form of love and compassion, wonder and awe at this place and the gift of this life.  Trustworthiness, I try, pain and fear cause minor deviations, occasionally error.  Competence, this is difficult when so much of my light is consumed by simply changing through healing.  This takes so much time and so much contemplation that I am not sure how long it will actually take.  It is happening, slowly but surely.  Is it not enough that each day I try, this is primary for me, the drive that gets me through each day, that I know today there will be some awakening, some light, some small realisation that will bring me closer to surrender. This is freedom.